“I tend to be loyal to people, not organizations. Orthodoxy (as in Orthodoxia), is an exception to that, but that is loyalty to being Orthodox, with all of my own failings, sins, and struggles. The sins and struggles are great, and weigh on me constantly. I try to be externally calm, and sure, when people around me need that, but it isn’t that way internally. But I understand loyalty to conscience, because (and here I will make a leap) that struggle of loyalty to conscience, when that conscience is struggling to live within what it is to be Orthodox, is The Ladder.”